I know my last post wasn’t exactly good news. Believe me… it depresses me just reading it. But I’m a big girl and I’ve put on my big girl e-undies and trudged on.

I got a fourth parcel for Jolly Farm as a way to sort of close one chapter and open to the next. With all of the money I would have saved on not paying for The Cottage any more, I simply bought the next parcel that would connect to Jolly Farm for the same weekly price and stuck a house on it. I moved my SLister, Aponi in with me so she has somewhere to live and a place for a few of her bunnies. Plus it’s just really nice having her there. We even got bunk beds.

In other news…

There are a lot of things I wanted with Xavion – things I thought we were going to have and looking back, it makes me really sad. I came to understand a lot of the desires people have in an SL relationship and now I feel sort of like they’ve been taken from me. I don’t want another relationship right now and I don’t want to start all over. We complimented each other so well and while I’m sure I’ll find someone just as good if not better… right now it just doesn’t feel like it.

I decided that I’m having a baby on SL. And no… not the creepy thing with the tummy talker. That stuff weirds me out. I am however, pregnant right now and Aponi is going to be my baby daddy. Anubis Darkwatch is really the daddy but don’t tell him that I stole his baby juice. I just feel like I lost my sense of belonging and family and those feelings need to go somewhere. I know it’s just SL… but I have real life situations that have robbed me of my sense of family for too long and will continue to do so. And so I understand now why people have children on SL – particularly those who can’t have children in real life.

So I’m pregnant right now and am set for a 9 week pregnancy. Stay tuned because we will be taking pictures of all of this.