Unless you’ve experienced the power of a great relationship like the one Xavion and I had, you probably can’t really understand all of the desires and plans I had forming in my mind. There were things I wanted with him… things I’d never considered before.

About 8 1/2 weeks ago, I was still feeling pretty bummed over the breakup and I was talking with my SLister Aponi about it. I mentioned how sad I was because Xavion and I had briefly discussed having SL children and that dream was long gone out the window. So we decided…

“Screw it.. we’ll have a baby together.”

Using what we claimed was stolen baby juice from our friend Anubis Darkwatch, we sat together on one of the big bunnies at Jolly Farm and used the so-called insemination tool this pregnancy system came with. And taa-daa… I was pregnant.

Several weeks passed and the pregnancy continued to be a sort of joke between us and I told everyone that I was having my SLister’s baby and that she was my baby daddy. No one took it too seriously at the time and I was simply enjoying role playing the silly story we’d created. That is until I met someone new…

While working around the farm one day, a potential customer messaged me, looking for my bunny chair that he’d seen at a club (hilariously enough, at some furry sex club). He made his way over to Jolly Farm and just sort of never left. He fell in love with Lionheart Estate and made plans to move into a parcel nearby in order to start up a pub he had planned.

We grew close in a short amount of time and I can honestly say that I felt as if we were nearly on the same level of comfort I once had with Xavion. This made it really easy for me to involve him in my Second Life. We knew each other for about 2 weeks during which my pregnancy wasn’t brought up very much. At this point, it was still considered a silly story between friends. It wasn’t until I was asked to end the pregnancy that the story took a turn for the more serious.

I struggled with the thought of ending my SL pregnancy. On the one hand, it’s just a silly story right? It’s not real. It’s just pretend. But is it really? Aponi hasn’t been on SL much and since she’s been gone so much, the story has really naturally gravitated more towards Anubis and I having a baby together. He started getting really into the story much more than I expected him to and I found myself not wanting to give up on that. The idea of letting go of something like this with a man who’s been such a close friend to me for a year now not to mention all of the parties involved like Aponi and Belle who also have been friends with me for as long… it just made me really sad.

I said no to ending the pregnancy.

By doing so, I cost myself a lot. It cost me a new friend who turned out to not really be a friend at all. He was spiteful and went around Lionheart estate saying horrible things about me – including telling people not to vote for me in the Chamber of Commerce Election. It cost me the election (I’m sure that wasn’t the only reason, but I’m sure it didn’t help either).

On the other hand, look at what I gained… It strengthened the bond between me and the people I love the most on Second Life. It’s taken my life in a direction I’d never even imagined. This pregnancy is really about all of us. Not just Aponi and I… not just about Anubis and I… but all of us. We all have a hand in this pregnancy.
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It takes a village to raise a child…

As of today, I have only 3 days left of my SL pregnancy and I am so sad to see it end. It’s just one chapter but it’s one that feels all too brief. On Saturday our son will make his way into the grid and will become apart of what I think will be an incredible family story. He’s already the most loved and doted upon prim baby in all of Second Life.