Today, I received an unexpected comment on my blog. I mean, I get so few of them anyways that aren’t spam for penis enlargement (seriously, what are you trying to tell me spammers!?). The comment while so short and simple, it really touched me and made me realize that as hard as it is, I really need to come back to this blog and update it.

My last post was marked January 24th and I basically fell off the blogging bandwagon. The truth is, I got insanely busy with other things – both in real life as well as Second. Coming back here to explain myself made me feel guilty and actually sort of pathetic. But a simple “Sookie where are you? I miss your posts.” really hit me in a soft spot and it’s time to at the least, give some updates… because really, they are quite amazing updates at that.

Jolly Farm

On February 23rd, just 2 weeks shy of Jolly Farm’s first birthday, I decided to close down the main store location. I wrote a touching, closing post on the Jolly Farm Online blog and held a closing sale. Closing Jolly Farm was heart breaking, but I really made room for bigger, better opportunities. I won’t get too mushy or into details since there’s so much to update you on, but feel free to read the linked post all about it. But the truth is… I lost my passion for Ozimals for a variety of reasons – some due to the product itself but mostly for my own reasons. I needed something new… a bigger, better project to conquer.

Lionheart Estate

I’m still employed with Lionheart Estate and recently celebrated a year of residency with them. I never imagined I’d live anywhere on Second Life for such a length of time and I am so proud to be apart of such a fantastic company. Lionheart continues to grow and recently opened its 18th sim.

2ndhub

I made a promise to myself to stop doing favors or work that didn’t benefit me nor pay me anything. Unfortunately, 2ndhub was one of those things. Complications and misunderstandings between the co-owners of 2ndhub.com and I, caused me to abandon my position as an associate. I wish them the best of luck… I think they’re gonna need it.

Kitty Cattery

My SL bestie Alia Whitfield and I have passed business ideas back and forth since.. pfft, December? Much to our surprise, Alia was sucked into the world of KittyCatS – a new, popular breedable. Together, we formed Kitty Cattery which has taken on the cat breeding community by storm. It’s everything Jolly Farm stood for and then some.

Really, I stand in awe of our business every day and all she and I have accomplished together along with an amazing staff backing us up every step of the way. You can learn all about Kitty Cattery on its website, www.KittyCattery.biz

Mad Props Challenge

I hate that I started this challenge and don’t have the time nor even the funds to keep up with it. I guess you could say that I bit off way more than I could chew. I seriously give mad props (hur hur) to those of you who blog so much, buy so many outfits and really keep up with the fashion trends. Fashion blogs are NO JOKE people. They require dedication and a hell of a lot of money for shopping.

Last, but certainly not least…

If you know me at all, you know all about my past relationship with Xavion. He and I broke up in late June 2010 and if you read the post about it, I’m sure you’ll understand the pain and frustration I was feeling at the time. It took me a long time to come to terms with the breakup and I admittedly did a lot of dating around, trying desperately to fill the void and recreate the relationship I had with him.

The truth is, I never expected him. I’m married in real life and when he and I met, I thought I was happily married. Meeting him showed me just how really unhappy I was and that my marriage simply wasn’t working. But Xavion broke up with me and my husband and I spent the following few months after that attempting to reconcile our marriage. But it just wasn’t the same… I wasn’t in love with him and nothing I feel for him nor have ever felt for him could compare to what I had with Xavion.

Some of you are probably thinking I’m completely crazy and may even be losing whatever respect you may have for me, but I can only say that I followed my heart and my mind to the place that not only makes me happy, but is really best for me. It may sound nuts that I was willing to give up my marriage for someone I met online, but hey… that’s love for you. It hits you… hard… and it makes no apologies for it.

It wasn’t until I briefly started to date a man on SL who had a girlfriend in real life that I really understood the reasons Xavion gave me for breaking up with me. This man was sneaking around his girlfriend’s back. I was up front with my husband about my relationship with Xavion, but at first he didn’t clearly understand how emotionally involved I’d become. Anyways, this guy was telling me all about his elaborate plans to leave his girlfriend when he could get his own place, and then would complain that his girlfriend tried to kiss him goodnight and such. I got to experience what it was like to be the other woman and how unrealistic the promises and relationship seemed.

I finally understood that Xavion and I needed to break up. He deserved me.. all of me. I couldn’t offer that at the time and I needed to give my marriage a chance. He saw that and he did what he needed to do to make sure that happened. The break up was hard and I stole away a lot of moments daydreaming about the day Xavion would be back in my life, sweeping me off of my feet and telling me how much he loved me and never should have broken up with me. Crazy, right? What a silly fairy tale.

Except… that fairy tale came true a month ago.

The funny thing is that I spent the first couple of weeks thinking that any minute I was going to wake up and it would have all been just a fantastic dream. Honestly most days, I still feel that way. Every day is better than the last and I see this long road ahead of us with so much opportunity. I wish everyone could experience a love like what we have. Trying to even describe it in words is just ridiculous and impossible.

In Conclusion…

I’ve been ridiculously busy. On SL it’s been the work between Kitty Cattery and Lionheart. In RL, I’m working on me and my personal life. I’m trying to get back on track, make better use of my time and honestly… get to the point where Xavion and I can have a brighter future together.

This blog needs a serious face lift. So much is outdated and it could use some spring cleaning. I’ll get to that… promise.